all I see is numbers obsessed with all these wonders not too good at math and can't calculate the thunders but there's lightning in my brain when synchronicitys asunder plundered millions of shudders at the thought of all my brothers being linked with one another my mind it starts to stutter i see the clock sputter 11:11 upon the rutter lets me know that twin flames are burning bright for each other and when it's 3:33 the angels are signaling it's time to get busy on some musical flickerings cause the spark warms the soul and the passion yo its never withering when my receipt reads 6.66 it's time to take a sit reevaluate my life and the man-made shit i split with like, do i really need that brew liquid to make me drunk as a dipshit or the buttery biscuits to make my heart flutter so quick its a sickening cryptic obsession that I'm hit with when numbers cross my path gotta mean more so listen hook the universe she speaks to me like sacred geometry all's quantifiable cept abstract philosophies not here to speak on pythagoreas' wild theologies only to acquaint you with my love affair with numerology (repeat) triple 7s are so sacred like a holy divination im a 7 life path so I'm lonely like the raven inquisitive like the joker have you choke on your frustration as a life scientist dissect the world from my space station nothing intrigues me more than learning bout death thru creation i am shiva the destroyer and im here to test your patience as i journey thru the worlds with numbers and equations the sum of the universe is zero i smash pumpkins on occasion equivocation of my hatred can be seen by erasing everything you thought was real cause its taught by the patrons counting how many times folks got popped by the bacon if you think you hate numbers well then you must be mistaken cause i calculate every blunder with every breath that I'm takin retraced elation with my minds elevation every time that i think I'm done with my placement i level up to admire the progress that I'm makin whether my minds here on earth or in outer space naked when you text me at 1:43 i must admit I'm giggly reminds me of beeper speak when i was a just a kitty meowing on the prowess lookin for love from willy nillies now it's grown woman shit avoiding men in my lil city not looking for a one night 68 with the after sex pillys im not that silly jilly out to catch her lil thrillies surely not to catch the germ or to get that burning feelin you can keep the illies my energys reserved like a copyright billing and when 10:10 crosses my mind i know it doubles the ceiling cause 0 is love and purity and 1, im focused on the killing like im adhd annoyed by the jingling and since 3s company Im safer with not mingling with the herds of cattle getting slaughtered by the millings busy walking a path of inklings cause i love the tingly stinging i count every step by singing punchin in the 16th bar swingin while that dj keeps their heads ringing signs ohhh yeah ohh gimme a sign just gimme a sign

we can't relate no we can't relate no more constantly waiting for something so meaningful you kept me trapped in purgator limbo breathing in blackness darkness so nimble wish we could be friends but lifes not that simple and since you can't behave then we can't be civil prayed for your waves but only got ripples we can't relate no we can't relate no more you striked me as the crazy type like psychopathic drew me in your ocean seas like asiatic but i guess you didn't know my steez cause i can't stand it if im casted to the side like anne up in the attic had me fantasizing like dope ugh you were my habit but Im done chasin the dragon bout to get the knife and start to stabbing it aint no joke cause hope died along with my patience always feelin like Im at fault you're the one to say shit the sexual comas with you would have been amazing its best if i depart like aliens in a space ship we seem to be on different planets like Venus and martians our stars only crossed to collide like hadron parsons i was just a game u played blew off nintendo cartridge bin over the drama switch the channels to off kid often daydream bout the good times to no avail this romantic boat done shipped sails verse 2 and when i say no i don't mean maybe i remember when i thought we'd go half on a baby but now thats nathaniel finito my love for you drier than them deserts in a mad max sequel no longer will i sacrifice my pride for your ego cause I'm looking in your heart and i can't find no equal got that fake love with them hate drugs in your systems ether dark matter in your soul thats kinda fecal need a king thug in my world that sees my regal adorns me with rare gems a knowledge thats lethal that uncut wisdom call it perico why treat me like a side chick instead of your peoples better get out that rolodex and call one of your freak hoes cause it aint me muhfucka cause it aint me all u catchin is a dial tone and maybe disease no longer will i bow to you get on your knees

some people see it as a weakness cause i don't seek this religulous type of frequence, but ain't no time to be prayin and Campbell said i should follow my bliss but she don't follow authors off the sides of high cliffs cause ain't no time to be prayin and whatchu know about goin out head in stress anxiety bout them judgin the way that i wear my dress aint no time to be prayin meanwhile the preachers up on the pulpit collecting from all the suckers manipulated by connin fuckers aint no time to be prayin father forgive me but how do i know you're not a she oh i know cause the sheeple steeples ran by creeps aint no time to be prayin third world problems but the money makes us Stevie's blinded to all the countries that can't even eat clean meats aint no time to be prayin gory wars battled in his holy name prophets sayin revelations came and now the antichrist to blame? aint no time to be prayin don't you realize fear is a monopoly feedin on insecurities to bleed your souls economy aint no time to be prayin the bible tellin us to love our neighbors as ourselves the tv tellin us to buy our worth up on the shelves aint no time to be prayin Devil's a scapegoat God is an atheist alchemist in the basement cookin meth with satans kids aint no time to be praying overdoses at a record high 100 k a year pharma pushin profit skies while our children die aint no time to be prayin promotin drinkin and sex all over system waves and then they wonder why we endin up in prison caves ain't no time to be prayin always searchin for an outer source to relieve our stress even though if we believe in self then we will be blessed aint no time to be prayin holidays pagans put in place corporately we still worship money 'sides, what God you know works for free? aint no time to be prayin inhale mary full of cures and healthy ways pushin chemo and drugs to kill u fast like it's a race aint no time to be prayin indoctrinate our kids with vaccines propaganda masterings and education factories its blasphemy aint no time to be prayin

it all seems like a dream pick up the pen to get cream first time I sharpened the sword duke I was only 15 freestylin to slick rick naughty ice in the spleen blastin Mac shell shocked bein all that I can be house parties and mics loud smarties and dykes planet A in the cyphe at that concert in Waiks direct descendants for life taught me the lessons insight and how to channel my light we battle usin the psych babble with A alikes while the wavs hit the spike lookin out for the P's you know they poppin for spite these cats model for sprite don't ever hop on this mic broken hearts shatter fake feel the hate in your fight give life to the grave rzarectin the mind dead awake desiree desert rays in the sky disarray of disney kids livin lavish on lies when you spittin my rhymes peel the veil from ya eyes Freddy kruger raps cause you die in ya dreams horror tracks for the cats that be talkin to sheep suited heart strapped mind wear my armor to sleep cause you never know peace til you armin ya peeps I wear my scars like a badge of honor eatin on the fauna blaze the purple floral marijuana my house a sauna bose speaker bumpin cappadonna I laugh cause he thinkin he a charmer im a goner eat that good karma keep that diet smooth you suck at livin dude you can't even die that good you suck at rapping cause you can't even lie that good call me the captain cause you can't even pirate good smile at my nemesis before I chuck the blade and once it penetrates contemplate how long they been a slave you been afraid but its time to regenerate genosape homicide all ova ya dinner plates they shrink ya pineal glands til they thinly in shape your brain disintegrates when the words are ignored notice when they kill our prophets then their profits'll soar if you don't stand for somethin then you're prolly a bitch end up dyin on your knees in a soggy abyss its time to raise the dead its a necromance instead not a love story all guts and gory I bleed the red then they know its time that I fed put these monsters to bed with these thoughts in my head see me pop out the shed last thing that you heard was these words that I said you can't run from yaself its a tragedy kid knock knock who the fuck aren't you glad I didn't say trump take you to a waterfall when I say, jump and when you hit the bottom its gonna say thump hah got em! they recording ya death for the play bumps I slay chumps put em in the trunk cause they play punks but in real life never made a stage thump I crave drunk but id rather taste skunk I had this made up while I was speakin in tongues hard to interpret like bloods in ya lungs gurgle on a liq fifth of a bottle of rum crucifix stitched on ya palm with a gun I spawned with the ones who bond with the sun here to save you from the drama of Andromeda hun

there's a method to my madness there's hope then there's sadness i mope in the badlands a moat of emotions a dream with mr sandman or a date with a sad dad lifes giving me the finger or maybe the backhand but i grow thru the mud like a lotus in a sap sand thru adversity i take out the trash can empty out the clutter with these rap hands with the wrath of my math and the rationale of a madman devote my notes on garotes ropes in the throats of spat plans catch me on the inside never on the out its not just fear holding the jokes its extreme experience in these towns of clasped hands rowing these boats down memories veins ingrained in the crass fans maybe they might laugh then i'll keep one foot in front the other despite the smirks from the masked pan scared to grow up but scoffs at the next fan merely there to shoot the breeze refuse degrees from the cash clan hook i keep the pen by my side like a sword its my sustenance when i need herb my thirst for justice when i need swerve this well aint drying up it eats words don't try to interpret my mind youll get lost up in these woods verse 2 it might be cluster fuck for you but, me i do this on the daily don't contemplate the dogmatic theosophists apocryphas from these blavatskys or alice baileys cause you put your trust in the word of the man who was rich enough to speak first thats so rehearsed and now i just fly off the seams of a meek purse a bleak hearse cursed with the skirts of the whores bleak thirst why wreak spurts when i can reap the burst of energy off my meat verse i don't take orders and don't ever try to control the heat squirt you'll end up feet first in a morgue with the rest of em who tried to reach, church it don't hurt me none if you don't interpret the speech slurs nor will i dumb it down for children who barely got their peach furs this screech can stir the night with the ambience of besieged blurs it all just melts together in a technicolor beam sir my paint brush just might be a feather of greek birds who philosophize on the meaning of each verb only to find out the authors were impeached nerds verse three and I'll get exiled too but don't worry i won't blame you and you're not my scape goat either i never run from my vain truth every action has it's consequence and that's why god made you to carry out this free will in the absolutes of brain stews heated up by the moments fueled by the naysayers with stained suits its a ranged fuse that gets lit off the same strange fruit this war isn't civil so why pretend it didn't mame you name and shame you until your awareness defames you til you're locked in a grey room with shackles that detain you me, i let it go that or let it burn depends on my sane view im game dude i just play mind tricks on myself to rearrange the shame cues dodge and dip the absurd til these grains grew lush enough for me to harvest without brewing up a lame excuse please peruse my maze but don't start sipping from my rain dew have you liable to go insane id allow it i won't tame you sign this non disclosure agreement so i can continue on my same route

welcome to the shit show thats become my gripe that hopeless despair i made her my wife welcome to the crypt hole where i dwell this shit aint right and now people feeding off my failures like fish gone ripe smell it in the atmosphere tension cut with a knife like all this time and I aint white enough for your eyes or maybe i aint liked cause you judge me with the devils eyes and he aint my type trials and tribulations smiles and strife grin and bear thru oppression an activist with a mic cause i ain't got no pipe or enough of a pay check to bet on this fight but im hopin my lights dont go out tonight hook now im tired of complaining it's pouring it's raining Im scorned and I'm jaded ignored or I'm hated what am i supposed to do with my life how am i supposed to move on why do these clouds follow my mind how did i get so lost in these times this maze filled with weeds feelin incomplete now im holding me back im roamin these tracks lord cut me three slacks so i can be back in my home in my world in my home instead of this shit show verse 2 picking up the pieces aint easy as it seems its like a quantum physics thesis or like trynna prove jesus impossible to breathe like the apnea of sleep less nights of the grieving its hard to believe this is me in a season of freezing winters with no green in sight wish i may wish i might gain the appetite to eat tonight while they feast on their bed of lies and laugh at my plight i clip the demons off my wings so i can take flight these issues and attachments got me feeling like shit they talkin "lit" up on the radio but im alone and its dim but id rather be solo and cold then baking in the fame glow life is more than just rainbows hope u enjoy the pain show

this goes out to my three seeds in deed and creed they free'd me from the spite of a repeat serial offender of leaving gave me a life with more meaning see when i met your dad it was a beautiful evening sitting at the beach while the moon she was still breathing decided from that day our connection was seeming to offer up a seedling of a sacrificial needing of something bigger than ourselves instead of just history repeating ended up moving to a hippy farm so peaceful and freeing listenin to aesop on an mp3 player while tokin the weedlings how can such a connection come off of myspace believe me we struggled so much but found a sync thru meeting built on politics religion and eating transformed both of us into such beautiful beings and im better til this day even tho we not speaking let me tell you more about your story as the records still streaming hook and even though the times have changed and in our minds we're not the same im still going thru these labor pains please listen to my labor pains we could debate on who's to blame but still the memories remain while im going thru these labor pains please listen to my labor pains i still recall being at the doctors they're saying it's twins at first we were shocked but then happiness sets in time for us stop being children and let adulthood begin yeah we spoke on what kind of parents we'd be frequent but aint really know until you came out the womb reachin Im laying on the table crying cause im freakin anything could have happened but there you were peakin your dad looked peak-ed both of us speechless how can two opposites make something so perfect and teaming with life a combination of patience traces of us in each seedling so smart so curious and there halo comes with her heart beating soon after the wedding with the reverend reading til death do us part but vows can shift meanings yet the most important reasons are these queenies growing up so fast even after the grieving i aint mean for it end up like this with me leaving hook it's a shame how one day you say you're in love and the next day you notice it ain't the type that you were thinking of not saying i never loved him cause i did but that fire burns out when the fightin catches wind and soon the flame that once warmed us now burns down the grins argue everyday and the liquor fuels the grim not knowing how the stress of daily life could cause so much conflict stayed for as long as i could but so much hurtful nonsense speak so ill of each other out of spite those tests we bombed it but the best gift was you three angels who soften my heart with each calm breath you were never the problem and also not the solution to solve it just innocent bystanders like rwandan nuns in a convent so even tho words get in the way of the topic just saying my loves unconditional like a nonprofit prophet channeling my past so you could learn something off it

it's like a broken record stuck on repeat waitin for the shallow seas to recede trynna succeed in killin off the ego dyin to lead never will i follow her into the lioness keep she swallows any chance in my heart to believe suffocates my reasons to breathe there's no space in these departure debriefs r.i.p. to the me that starts to be free once she got a sheet of decreed release the other half of my peace started to freeze paralyzed by a fear bred by centuries of deceased swept in the eugenicist breeze carried me to where im meant to be seiged genetic disease call it alcoholic i just say it's the gene devolvin me into a parabolic bodily scene welcome to the jungle of heresy dreams and as ill as it seems there's still a part of me that dares to be seen as more than just an object in this parody scheme hook its hard to remember what we look like inside our minds far from the envious masks we hide, behind do you ever notice the scars we keep tucked beneath our eyes at night do you ever know why our subconscious creeps out it screams in fright bridge no more worries its skin deep only in our dreams we will be free there's somethin missin in the way that she grins its makin me cringe hingin on the edge of realism and fringe it makes me sad that we'll never be friends cause i am her worst enemy conspire for her ending her reflections a medley of pieces stitched together by a desire to be friendly but its only a glimpse see the egos only hot air in the loneliest blimps im feeble in my trials but they're only attempts to get beneath the surface with the glowing of fish even with the rowing of simps this boat can never go ashore so this stream is just where we will sit waiting for a tug from the going against minnow bite the hate bait knowing who wins fear feeds anger and it's turning within cause the love i had for her well, it died with my sins now my heart is just a grave decorated with pens yo tell me what you seein cause i don't see it tell me who you want me to be and ill be it deflect your self hatred like Manson im your tourinquet this inception is a nightmare dyin alone, filled with regret and still i upset the balance with my brain waves these doors of perception finally opened and these are strange days so stop judging me we all stuck in the same space strip away the clothes cars and red face all you are is flesh and dem bones like an alice in chains head case cut me down like Johnny cash but im walking tall cause i heard em say that finger might be pointed at bliss but the rest of em gonna slap you up like a drunk Rick James bitch im dumb but im famous thats what they'll blame this zombie generation when the celebs are on pain meds what a cosmic joke and karmas at our throats singing our tune but hope floats this murder she wrote while lickin her wounds

just wait and see with loyalty these walls come down for you and when im free to just be me these walls come down for you it took a little convincing and a whole lot of time to soften my cold heart and open up my mind see I've been hurt quite often sick of shadow boxing with my options sick of watchin all my friends fall in love while I'm still rotten bout the way people pop in to your life without notice or leave with a focus of trynna bring you down to the point that you drink til you're hopeless leavin me moping wondering what I did that could leave me so broken I don't want to be noticed so I lurk in the corners til it's safe not self loathing just over being roped in to a bull pen with people who don't show them selves until it's too late and we both devoted to a dead end cycle of abuse and hate all I want is a best friend and a life mate who gives me the freedom and doesn't hesitate to tell me the truth no matter whats at stake ill let you penetrate my heart with an arrow of love if you let me wait til I'm truly ready to open up the gates I don't mind taking responsibility for emotions fully my own and I may let my guard down for people I wouldn't allow in my home but ive learned my lessons countin my blessings speaking these confessions til somebody passes my thorough inspection cause even tho you get passed one wall theres always more and hundreds of bolt locks nailed to the solid door but as I speak to you each day my walls crumble to the floor just have patience with me while we journey on this ocean tour I'll guide you thru the wild terrain and the jungles of nevermore and give you the keys to my heart even when it's dark and insecure you see i had to rebuild after the last wreck that i went thru you complete me at a part i was missing and its seeping in my mental and we vibe at a spot that dives deeper than this instrumental I'll give you all of my body even tho it's just a rental you make me feel safe and sexy its really that simple meant for me like that jewel song I hope it's you climbing thru my window I'm throwing up the white flag cause like dido I'm in love I just hope you know that you're the one that I'm thinking of cause love is a battlefield and I'm all outta slugs and I'm tired of self soothing I'm all outta hugs and I'm sober now three months I'm all outta drugs but I'm addicted to you somehow I'm all outta shrugs ready to begin again eager to get me outta this hole that i did dug amidst rugs i cried so many tears emit emotions so raw even the onions would cheer so glad that i picked up the pen and put down the beer so glad i picked up the phone and put down the fear of rejection and a hate for myself that's lasted too many years even tho i was alone i was never lonely and you'd have to be pretty dope to get me out of my home see, Im kind of a hermit and i love my personal space i don't like people touching me but you're a special case i wanna tell you how i feel while you're clutching my face tell me you like the taste lets go at my pace bridge said i got something to say to you i got something to say to you we got a whole lotta lovin to do ooohhhhh im gonna let these walls come down ooh baby when they all fall down you better be ready for me for me

Standing on the edge of my thoughts About to jump Fuck my feelins They got me Lookin like a straight up chump Slumped Dumped Tired of hearin my heart go thump pumped up Hopes crushed Like a beat up truck I'm keyed up, what? Let me speak up Before I'm dust Before all we are Is a grave of distance A wave of inches Back to the black hole Of conditions Of missin Someone who spits in The face of love Instead of listens Fuck you For being so nice For being my type Matter fact Fuck you For treating me right For keeping me hype For showing me What real love is like Fuck you For leaving me With anguish and spite Fuck you For every time You made my night Fuck you For fucking me right For loving my light Fuck you For coming up into my life Fuck you I'll prolly love you For the rest of my life And now the fever Of catchin feelins Is catching up to me And my eyes are just a river That's crashin into the seas I'm not sayin this the ending But best believe I thought our telepathy Was spellin out destiny neglected chemistry I'm reachin for weaponry Always self destructive Cavin into these assumptions I'm hot he's cold with him there's always somethin If I'm not bein bold I literally couldn't function I am not for errybody get lost in this percussion

ohhh and i love him mmmmm la la la la laaaa oooh yes i do said i do i do i love him feelin insecure bout myself i asked him i said ooooohhh boy i said where'd you sleep last night tell me polly needs to know yeah cause ya cause ya think I'm going dumb like is this about a girl that I know he said all apologies my libido took control ohhh and i do i do i love him mmmmm la la la la laaaa oooh yes i do said i do i do i love him hey he's the one likes all my pretty songs the one I gave my heart shaped box to mmm but i should have known nature is a whore yeah she said she said you can have some more is it my very bad posture or is or is something in the way of how you feel bout me oh me oh where do bad boys go when they die yea i hope you burn in the lake of fiyah hook